My Flaws & Darkness Are My Superpower – NOT “Self-Improvement”

https://beccathesun.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/08/2-FLAWS.mp3Podcast: Play in new window | DownloadSubscribe: Apple Podcasts | Android | RSSEpisode #2: Self-improvement culture (as well as Asian culture) does not give us the tools for self-mastery. I was only able to truly love myself and manage my anxiety by mastering my dark side and learning to use my flaws as a powerful…

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Childhood Pain & Lost Dreams

https://beccathesun.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/08/1-INTRO.mp3Podcast: Play in new window | DownloadSubscribe: Apple Podcasts | Android | RSSEpisode #1: Quitting martial arts as a teen is what forged the path for the rest of my life; a life I didn’t want, without realizing it. You are always one decision away from a totally different life. I chose a different life…

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What if I die trying and a failure?

This is the question that I’ve struggled with the most since early childhood up until now. Ambition is a beautiful part of the human spirit. High school was the peak of meltdowns. In university, the anxiety felt worse, but I wouldn’t have as many meltdowns; I simply combated by working harder and more aggressively. As…

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Coffee & sugar: My 1 week stress eating bender & fat gain despite 2-4 hrs/day of Muay Thai training

Stress, anxiety, coffee, and refined sugar have profound physiological effects on us and are “the norm” in our society; in my opinion, it’s no wonder that overeating disorders are so common. Given my anxiety and binge eating disorder past, I normally cut out coffee and refined sugars as they can be triggering. Against my better…

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“People don’t care that you’re a shitty person – they want intimacy”: My Clinical Counselling Session

I synthesize, condense, and paraphrase a session with my clinical counsellor and coach, who has been integral and amongst several things I do to work on my mental health. Key Takeaway: As a performance driven individual, I have used my performances as a disordered coping mechanism towards conflict in my relationships. An unconscious thought pattern…

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Alberto Nodale, Mr World Austria ’19, Instagram Fitness & Lifestyle Model

https://beccathesun.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/03/3-Alberto-Final.mp3Podcast: Play in new window | DownloadAlberto Nodale ( www.albertonodale.com , @albertonodale ) founded an award-winning startup at the age of 21. At 28 years old, he is Mister Austria 2017/2018 and will be proudly representing his home country at Mister World 2019 in July. His honest and behind-the-scenes take on being an influencer His…

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24 years old & whatever I am doing, it is working

“Sometimes God breaks your heart to save your soul.” This was a journal entry at one of the lowest points of my life, in the midst of recovering from a binge eating disorder. It happened 6 months ago around my 24th birthday, in the summer of 2018. A few months afterward, I exited a nearly…

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