Right, Tight, & Consistent 🍑💸😈

https://beccathesun.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/05/7-RTC-final.mp3Podcast: Play in new window | DownloadSubscribe: Apple Podcasts | Android | RSS3 pillars of being Right Tight Consistent #rtc (+ apps / terms mentioned): Productivity (Asana, Pomodoro, Insight Timer) Nutrition (Paleo, Hojicha, Sencha, Carob) Relationships (Friendly Strength Steli Efti, Close CRM) It takes badass-ery to thrive in chaos. This is dedicated to all the sunflower souls who are chasing their dreams with work ethic … Continue reading Right, Tight, & Consistent 🍑💸😈

What if I die trying and a failure?

It sounds so self-involved to admit it: this is the question that I’ve struggled with the most since early childhood up until now. Ambition is a beautiful part of the human spirit. Combined with my performance-driven mindset (“type”), my Asian immigrant upbringing, and my insufferable tendency to take myself too seriously, I have always had the anxiety of this unresolved question in the back of my head.

So 2 weeks ago, I decided to ask my friends this question. It hadn’t occurred to me before to do so – silly me.

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Dear Anxiety, I wish *we* had surrendered sooner

I refer to my experience of anxiety as “we”: my anxiety is not solely due to me, and I am not solely due to my anxiety. I am accountable to myself and deserve to operate at the highest level of productivity and service to others. That’s why I’ve done the work on my own and with my clinical counsellor & coach to manage my anxiety.

It’s been exactly 2 months since I arrived in Chiang Mai and it’s taken me this long to realize this day, like all other days, is a perfect day: wake up, morning training, hustle at cafe, afternoon training, and evening Thai massage. I am living my dream: Travel Train Create.

I reflect bittersweetly on how I wish I had realized this sooner; this is an exceptional life and I’ve been missing out on appreciating it

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Coffee & sugar: My 1 week stress eating bender & fat gain despite 2-4 hrs/day of Muay Thai training

Stress, anxiety, coffee, and refined sugar have profound physiological effects on us and are “the norm” in our society; in my opinion, it’s no wonder that overeating disorders are so common.

Given my anxiety and binge eating disorder past, I normally cut out coffee and refined sugars as they can be triggering. Against my better judgement, I made the mistake of drinking coffee and eating traditional desserts. Given the state I was already in, that led to stress eating, which lead to gaining fat + water weight in 1 week despite training 2-4 hours of Muay Thai per day.

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“People don’t care that you’re a shitty person – they want intimacy”: my clinical counselling session

I synthesize, condense, and paraphrase a session with my clinical counsellor and coach, who has been integral and amongst several things I do to work on my mental health.

Key Takeaway: As a performance driven individual, I have used my performances as a disordered coping mechanism towards conflict in my relationships. An unconscious thought pattern was that loved ones pointing out my flaws through criticism & feedback meant that I had lost their respect and needed to redeem myself.

Oh, yes. How convoluted, juicy and messed up 😈 Keep reading for all the tea.

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Annoyed at myself, a solopreneur pursuing a creative & an athletic endeavour

A discussion of mistakes & what I have felt utterly annoyed at myself for over the last few days.

I came to Thailand with the goal of establishing myself as a content creator and having my first fight. A few days ago, I started my fight camp, meaning that I will be training 2x/day for 6 days per week and fighting for the first time in 3 weeks.

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Alberto Nodale, Mr World Austria ’19👑: Instagram followers vs. legacy 📈

Alberto Nodale ( www.albertonodale.com , @albertonodale ) gets very honest & forthcoming about being an Instagram famous fitness & lifestyle model, his mistakes in building a personal brand, and how he feels about being titled “the most desirable man in Austria”. I ask him about how a lot of people are jaded by his type of Instagram feed, one that is clearly curated and edited to perfection (with beachy & shirtless modelling photos!).

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Dear God,  Please use me for your purpose. Let your let shine through me.  Please give me strength, courage, wisdom, grace, kindness, humility, and patience to do hard things. Please give me stamina to keep the faith and willingness to surrender. Please give me fearlessness and confidence to overcome challenges. If it is in your will, please deliver me to victory. Please send angels to … Continue reading Prayer

24 years old & whatever I am doing, it is working

“Sometimes God breaks your heart to save your soul.”

This was a journal entry at one of the lowest points of my life, in the midst of recovering from a binge eating disorder. It happened 6 months ago around my 24th birthday, in the summer of 2018. A few months afterward, I exited a nearly 8-year relationship with my first boyfriend and quit my first full-time job with an amazing company.

I didn’t realize my birthday was in two days. Upon waking up, I thought to myself: “did I as a little girl imagine that one day I’d be living the way I am right now? Painfully, stagnant, and failed?” I felt like I let myself down. I painfully reminisced and nearly hated myself for, at one point in university, indulging in such a carefree sentiment of how I could not wait to get out of school, into the real world, and finally make it happen.

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Rebecca Rinaldi: This girl is on 🔥fire, unapologetically

Rebecca Rinaldi ( @rebecca.rinaldi , www.rebeccarinaldi.com ) and I share some of our most difficult solo travel experiences with loneliness and anxiety. We discuss pain, heartbreak, and why my 8 year relationship didn’t work out (spilling the tea, #thankunext)

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