Right, Tight, & Consistent 🍑💸😈

3 pillars of being Right Tight Consistent #rtc (+ apps / terms mentioned):

  1. Productivity (Asana, Pomodoro, Insight Timer)
  2. Nutrition (Paleo, Hojicha, Sencha, Carob)
  3. Relationships (Friendly Strength Steli Efti, Close CRM)

It takes badass-ery to thrive in chaos. This is dedicated to all the sunflower souls who are chasing their dreams with work ethic and honesty. I am currently training for my 2nd fight and working on several creative projects independently.

TRAVEL TRAIN CREATE is a podcast by @BeccaTheSun about creative, athletic, and entrepreneurial endeavours. You are always one decision away from a totally different life. Soul nourishing, gut spilling, & heart pouring conversations. We are all in this together. Listen on iTunes, Stitcher, Overcast, or your favourite podcast app.

6 Tips 🌈 Find your rainbow after the storm

Lately I’ve been asking myself “WTF am I doing with my life?”. There have been a few setbacks and yesterday, I thought about shutting down this podcast.

I actually published 2 episodes recently and had to delete them. Here is an excerpt from one of those deleted episodes: “It’s been more than a couple of weeks since our last episode, and that’s because something huge happened: I had my first Muay Thai fight 3 weeks ago! You can see the full footage with my commentary on my YouTube channel, Becca the Sun

6 tips to weather the storm (Personal Crisis Management):

#1 Embrace the level up. The greater the pursuit, the higher the demands.
#2 “Life is sometimes hard. Things go wrong, in life and in love and in business and in friendship and in health and in all the other ways that life can go wrong. And when things get tough, this is what you should do. Make good art” – Neil Gaiman
#3 Reflect on your mistakes to improve your process.
#4 Do not judge yourself. Lay it all out. Allow yourself to neutrally see what you’re working with. Take a step back.
#5 Understand what your real goals are. Don’t react; aim. Don’t react to emotions; instead, aim at your target – your goal.
#6 Listen to your corner’s advice.

TRAVEL TRAIN CREATE is a podcast by @BeccaTheSun about creative, athletic, and entrepreneurial endeavours. You are always one decision away from a totally different life. Soul nourishing, gut spilling, & heart pouring conversations. We are all in this together. Listen on iTunes, Stitcher, Overcast, or your favourite podcast app.

What if I die trying and a failure?

It sounds so self-involved to admit it: this is the question that I’ve struggled with the most since early childhood up until now. Ambition is a beautiful part of the human spirit. Combined with my performance-driven mindset (“type”), my Asian immigrant upbringing, and my insufferable tendency to take myself too seriously, I have always had the anxiety of this unresolved question in the back of my head.

So 2 weeks ago, I decided to ask my friends this question. It hadn’t occurred to me before to do so – silly me.

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Dear Anxiety, I wish *we* had surrendered sooner

I refer to my experience of anxiety as “we”: my anxiety is not solely due to me, and I am not solely due to my anxiety. I am accountable to myself and deserve to operate at the highest level of productivity and service to others. That’s why I’ve done the work on my own and with my clinical counsellor & coach to manage my anxiety.

It’s been exactly 2 months since I arrived in Chiang Mai and it’s taken me this long to realize this day, like all other days, is a perfect day: wake up, morning training, hustle at cafe, afternoon training, and evening Thai massage. I am living my dream: Travel Train Create.

I reflect bittersweetly on how I wish I had realized this sooner; this is an exceptional life and I’ve been missing out on appreciating it

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Coffee & sugar: My 1 week stress eating bender & fat gain despite 2-4 hrs/day of Muay Thai training

Stress, anxiety, coffee, and refined sugar have profound physiological effects on us and are “the norm” in our society; in my opinion, it’s no wonder that overeating disorders are so common.

Given my anxiety and binge eating disorder past, I normally cut out coffee and refined sugars as they can be triggering. Against my better judgement, I made the mistake of drinking coffee and eating traditional desserts. Given the state I was already in, that led to stress eating, which lead to gaining fat + water weight in 1 week despite training 2-4 hours of Muay Thai per day.

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“People don’t care that you’re a shitty person – they want intimacy”: my clinical counselling session

I synthesize, condense, and paraphrase a session with my clinical counsellor and coach, who has been integral and amongst several things I do to work on my mental health.

Key Takeaway: As a performance driven individual, I have used my performances as a disordered coping mechanism towards conflict in my relationships. An unconscious thought pattern was that loved ones pointing out my flaws through criticism & feedback meant that I had lost their respect and needed to redeem myself.

Oh, yes. How convoluted, juicy and messed up 😈 Keep reading for all the tea.

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Annoyed at myself, a solopreneur pursuing a creative & an athletic endeavour

A discussion of mistakes & what I have felt utterly annoyed at myself for over the last few days.

I came to Thailand with the goal of establishing myself as a content creator and having my first fight. A few days ago, I started my fight camp, meaning that I will be training 2x/day for 6 days per week and fighting for the first time in 3 weeks.

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Prayer

Dear God, 

Please use me for your purpose. Let your let shine through me. 

Please give me strength, courage, wisdom, grace, kindness, humility, and patience to do hard things. Please give me stamina to keep the faith and willingness to surrender. Please give me fearlessness and confidence to overcome challenges. If it is in your will, please deliver me to victory.

Please send angels to protect my family. Please guide us to inner healing. Let us grow stronger together and bring out the best in each other. Please bless my community with wealth, health, and happiness. 

Amen

24 years old & whatever I am doing, it is working

“Sometimes God breaks your heart to save your soul.”

This was a journal entry at one of the lowest points of my life, in the midst of recovering from a binge eating disorder. It happened 6 months ago around my 24th birthday, in the summer of 2018. A few months afterward, I exited a nearly 8-year relationship with my first boyfriend and quit my first full-time job with an amazing company.

I didn’t realize my birthday was in two days. Upon waking up, I thought to myself: “did I as a little girl imagine that one day I’d be living the way I am right now? Painfully, stagnant, and failed?” I felt like I let myself down. I painfully reminisced and nearly hated myself for, at one point in university, indulging in such a carefree sentiment of how I could not wait to get out of school, into the real world, and finally make it happen.

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