It is not too late.

When I started Muay Thai at 24, I truly believed that it was too late.

I had quit martial arts as as teenager due to childhood trauma and decided that I was never going to fight. I was going to die with regret. I was at the heaviest I had ever weighed due to binge eating disorder. I had just quit my career in Silicon Valley. I was desperately clinging to the timeline of getting married and having children in 2 years. So when I left my first boyfriend after nearly a decade, I felt like an utter failure.

My life was over.

When your life falls apart, it is because it is time to create one that supports who you truly are.

I had been living a life I didn’t want.

Instead of fighting and writing, I had chosen a competitive career in sales because I was trying to fill the void of what I had given up as a junior national wushu gold medalist. I hadn’t healed from the emotional trauma of competing – the verbal abuse from my Dad and body-shaming from my Mom.

I had stayed in a toxic relationship, because I was conditioned to believe that love meant abuse. I had unconsciously chosen to be a Chinese Christian “good girl”, because I didn’t know that I had been groomed into that narrative.

I couldn’t hold on anymore, so I finally let go. I finally had the courage to look at my life and say “This isn’t it” – to leave it all behind.

So I let go of that 2 year timeline, and 6 months later I competed in my first Muay Thai fight in Thailand, with less than a year of training in Canada.

Once I let go, I got there sooner than I could have ever dreamed of

Sometimes God breaks your heart to save your soul.

Immediately after my breakup, I self-recovered from binge eating and lost all the weight. I realized that he was never my soulmate and how wrong it was for him to have hindered my recovery by pressuring me to continue triggering dieting practices.

I felt worthless after my first break up and I had no idea what was next. So I decided to take a big fat swing at life. I decided to choose a different life.

3 months after my break up, I solo traveled to Thailand, where I fought my first Muay Thai fight and solo traveled for 6 months. I rediscovered my self-worth and became confidently single.

You are always one decision away from a totally different life.

Dear girls, chase DREAMS – not diamond rings.

You’ll get to where you want to be if you have the courage to let go of timelines and people who aren’t meant for you.

Letting go is letting it happen.

Because just when life seems to end, it finally begins.

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It is not too late 💫 When I started Muay Thai at 24, I truly believed that it was too late. I had a 2 year timeline. I got there in 6 months. Let go of timelines and people – you'll get there sooner. I had quit martial arts as a wushu gold medalist due to childhood trauma and decided that I was never going to fight. I was going to die with regret. I was desperately clinging to the timeline of getting married and having children in 2 years. So when I left my first boyfriend after nearly a decade, I felt like an utter failure. I couldn't hold on anymore, so I had to let go… 🦋 I let go of that 2 year timeline, and 6 months later, I competed in my first fight with less than a year of training in Canada. "Sometimes God breaks your heart to save your soul" …#ChaseDreamsNotDiamondRings

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